Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Living in the closet and the scale

I'm living in the closet about my weight loss surgery.  Yup...I'm hiding out.  Here is the thing...I'm not ashamed of my surgery.  Never have been and I never will be.  However, I am was afraid of failing...so I didn't tell anyone but my immediate family and my best friends.  Now that I am having some success with my weight loss...I'm still in the closet.  The thing is...if someone ask me what I'm doing...I tell them I'm eating smaller portions...I'm exercising more...and I had WLS.  I never lie if I'm directly asked about it.  The thing is I don't feel it is anyone's business.  That's just me.  I'm not an overly private person..but there are somethings I just don't feel the need to share.  My WLS is one of those things.  I'm friends with many of you on FB and you have recently witness me post workout or food photos.  Thank you for your encouraging words.  I would just ask that you don't mention my WLS on FB as it is no body's business but mine.  Thank you in advance.

Do you ever get tired of people mentioning your weight loss.  I never thought I would say this...but I'M SICK TO DEATH OF IT.  Like seriously...if we see each other several times a week...I dont' need you to remind me that I've lost weight.  Fool...I know that.  I hate to sound ungrateful...but I don't want to talk about my weight.  I'm not good at accepting compliments.  Yes...this is from the girl who loves being the center of attention.  Just let me be me without mentioning the obvious.  That would be ideal.  I know it won't happen...and I will try to get better at accepting the compliment instead of trying to direct the conversation to another topic. 

I've been sleeved for 17 weeks (4 months) now.  Whew how time flys when your eating smaller portions.  LOL  I'm down a total of 48 lbs.  Which brings my grand total weight loss since being banded in 2010 to 94 lbs gone FORFUCKINGEVER!!!!!  I'm happy with the numbers...but please know I'm not stopping.  I"m going to keep going until I reach that magical place....lol...sorry I'm watching someone eat lucky charms.  LOL  No seriously...I'm good.  I know where I want to go and how to get there.

How often do you weigh?  A lady in one of my support groups says she only steps on the scale every 6 weeks.  She says she allows her clothes to tell her how successful she is.  I'm thinking about giving it a try.  That damn scale is evil.  It hasn't moved this week...even though I've been playing with my calories just to get it going.  Nada.  So I'm going to give the scale a break.  I'm not going to step back on until Wednesday May 8th.  Well at least that is the plan.   LOL

Wear your day well my friends...wear your day well.

4 comments:

♥ Drazil ♥ said...

Amazing total loss. Way to go doll!

Roo said...

During the early days of lapband I didn't tell anybody (except my family and close friends) and if someone asked I just said I was 'dieting'...because of the fear of failure...once I started seeing the results I started to open up...with the sleeve I'm happy to talk about it if I'm asked because I feel that the sleeve was a fix from a lapband gone wrong...and I know it's the best option for me (but I don't annouce it to the world). As for the compliments, that's something I'm trying to work on...I used to love being the centre of attention but not my weight being mentioned....I find it hard to accept compliments and quite often find myself replying the a negative...ie thanks, but I have so much more to lose...or something similar...it's the emotional battles that we still have to conquer.
Keep up the fab work and can't wait to see if you can do the 6 weeks...I weigh myself everyday and I probably should set myself a similar challenege (although perhaps not as long!) x

Anonymous said...

OMG- I would die if I tried to go six weeks without the scale. I need it to validate me (and make me feel bad)every day- sad, I know.

Ronkidonks said...

Lol I'm with Robyn....When I'm in the game - you know actually TRYING to lose weight - I'm on that sucker at twice a day! Also, I like to see how much my weight fluctuates from morning to night. I think it gives me a tighter reign on my food/exercise choices too.

I haven't told anyone about my surgery, except immediate family of course.

Everyone is different....I'm generally not a put-everything-out-there kinda gal.

Your weight loss so far is AMAZEBALLS! Looking great mama!