New Week…New Goals

As the new week begins I am setting my weekly goals.  Here we go…

Exercise a minimum of 5 days for a minimum of 1 hour.
Prepared food for lunch and dinner for the work week.
Learn how to calculate the nutritional value of all prepared foods (like soups and casseroles).
Turn a cartwheel!

Eating and Exercise

Hey my lovelies!!  The weekend has been pretty uneventful.  Charles and I attended a behavior modification class (required for foster parents) on Saturday.  That freaking class is 8 hours long.  I absolutely hate it. 

For lunch we went to Hooters!!!  I have always loved their wings.  So my husband orders fried pickles.  Seriously...why do people fry pickles. They taste just fine without the added layer of clogged arteries.  Anyway...I skipped the fried pickles.  Then we ordered wings.  I love anything spicy...it just makes me really happy.  LOL  I am actually proud of my restraint.  I drank 2 glasses of water before the wings ever arrived.  I had 2 wings.  I swear it took me dang near 20 minutes just to eat them.  This slow chewing is not the easiest for me. 

Last night...I jump on the dreadmill.  I am happy to report I completed 60 full minutes....15 of which were ran.  Whew...this body is so not built for running...not yet anyway.  It was a good workout. 

Today was a Zumba day...but I didn't make it to class.  Which meant Wii Zumba...just as fun.

Let's go Crazy - BYOC

BYOC…Bring Your Own Crazy 5 little questions you can copy and paste to your blog if you so desire – in an effort to get to know each other better and to give your blog brain a break!

Enjoy!

1. Are you a heavy or light sleeper?
I am a heavy sleeper I suppose.  I can sleep through just about anything...except crying kids.  I hear every whimper and I'm up in an instant.  On the other hand, the smoke alarm can go off and I will sleep right through it. 

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?
I would definitely teach Human Resources.  I love the course work associated with it.
3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?

I have always wanted to speed read.  OMG...if I could speed read, I could read over a 100 books a month.  That would be awesome.  I'm currently stuck at only being able to read 8 books a month.  Totally lame.

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?

I wouldn't call it a cat fight...but I have been in a lot of fights.  However, once I realized how cute I am...I decided not to fight anymore...OK not really...I just started caring a weapon.  LOL

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Blogland is grrreat!!!  Everyone is so supportive and motivating.  Everyone is talking about B.O.O.B.S.  I can't wait to meet all the wonderful ladies in person.  My blog family ROCKS!!

Real life...sucks serious frog tails and toenails.  The federal government has yet to pass a budget.  Which means the possibility of a government shutdown.  Which sucks for my house, because we are a dual federal income household.  Oh yeah...the best part...we still have to go to work, because we are essential personnel. 

For some reason I'm an emotional mess...which is so not my thing.  I'm the strong one...I'm the one everyone else leans on...I don't need any help!!!  Wrong f***ing answer.  I am looking into finding someone to speak to for me.

Exercise is just that exercise.  LOL  I want to enjoy it...but I don't.  I have continued to do it...but I'm not happy about  it.  LOL Water intake is great.  Food intake is pretty good.  Except for I forgot my breakfast and lunch on the counter...my kids wanted to play kissy face through the gate.  I couldn't deny them that.  LOL

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

Is this band really gonna work?!?

I know I was totally geeked about my 4 lb loss yesterday.  It's a new day and I'm feeling sorry for myself.  Pity party in aisle 1. 

While at the office yesterday I told the PA (I have not seen my Dr. since surgery and will more than likely never see him again) that I can eat more than a cup and that I get hungry sooner than 4 hours.  She suggested I eat smaller portions just more often...instead of larger portions at one time. 

I was given a .5 cc fill as I only have a 10 cc band.  She stated she didn't want to dilate (or something like that) my band.  So all my fills from this point on will be small. 

Today I'm on mushies...so I had Amy's Creamy Chicken Divan soup (delicious by the way).  I made a 1 cup portion.  When I felt the hunger come on I had half a cup.  Barely an hour later and my stomach was talking to me again.  I had the other portion of the soup at 11:45.  It's now 1:12 p.m. and I'm hungry. 

Am I doing something wrong?  I am utilizing the the small plates, small containers for work, small utensils, drinking tons of water.  I don't drink protein shakes and I can't find one I can stomach.  I do get lots of protein from my food.

I set new goals at the beginning  of the week.  The main goal is to exercise at least 5 days.  I'm doing that as well. 

Oh I'm so flustered right now.  I know it has only been 3 months...but gosh darn I think mine is broken!!  It's just not working...do I get another one or am I doomed to have a faulty product.  Then again it could be user error. 

I totally suck frog tails and toenails right now. 

Weight Update and ABC's

I swear I feel like I have been away from Blogland for a month instead of 3 days.  It's been really busy in my world. 

I had my 4th fill today.  I'm now at 6.5 cc's.  I explained that I can still eat more than a cup of food and that I get hungry sooner than 4 hours.  I made sure to explain it was not head hunger.  At any rate I loss 4.9 lbs since the last visit.  It puts me at 288.2.  I'm okay with it.  I go back in 4 weeks.  I'm going to shoot for a 8 to 10 lb loss during that time.

Here are my ABC's

A) Age: 32


(B) Bed Size: King

(C) Chore You Hate: Grocery shopping and putting up the above mentioned groceries

(D) Dogs? Just 1...his name is Spaz

(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: Water

(F) Favorite Color: Green and Yellow

(G) Gold or Silver? White Gold

(H) Height: 5'7 1/2"

(I) Instruments You Play: Piano

(J) Job Title: Captain's Secretary

(K) Kids: 2 and a possibility

(L) Live: in Texas

(M) Mom's Name: Una

(N) Nicknames: Precious, Evil Lynn, Dawny, Pookie
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? yes...only once

(P) Pet Peeve: ignorant, racist people

(Q) Quote from a Movie: Harpo, who dis' woman?
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right

(S) Siblings: I'm the only one...thank God

(T) Time You Wake Up? 5:30 a.m.

(U) Underwear: cotton hipsters
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: Cauliflower

(W) What Makes You Run Late: I hate getting out of bed
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: To many to name...I'm a walking klutz
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Banana Pudding, fried chicken.
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Butterfly...San Antonio has a butterfly house...I love it.

Celebrating!!

Today is my hubby's birthday.  I like to tell him he is old...only because he is 12 years my senior.  LOL.  He turned 45 today.  So we celebrated by going to a Brazilian steakhouse.  You know the ones with a salad bar and an unlimited supply of meat being offered to you.  Well let me just say...I'm so proud of myself.  I had a small salad (which was yummy).  I only drank water.  I drank a full glass before taking my first bite of food. 

So the meat starts coming and I get three pieces.  Then I commence to cut a small piece of each.  I cut that small piece into even smaller pieces.  I only took 2 or 3 bites and chewed them to smithereens.  LOL. 

I'm excited I got lots of protein.  However, I have no idea how many calories I consumed.  I know it totally sucks!!

Here is a picture of me and the birthday boy...sorry about the lipstick on his face (not really).

This is us before leaving...when my makeup was still in place.  LOL

And then there I am in my jeggings.  LOL...I totally love jeggings.

Here I am looking tipsy and we hadn't even left the house.  LOL...BTW I did have a rum and coke...it was so good.  It was my first drink since September.  I'm thinking about taking up drinking...since the kids are driving me crazy.

I hope everyone had a FAB weekend.  I'm going to go into to work tomorrow even though I don't have to.  I want to clean out my office.  I so need to get better organized. 

50 Baby!!!



That's right.  I have 50 followers (I still love saying that)!!  Who wouda thunk it?!?  LOL!!  I must say that each of you are keeping me sane.  Seriously...there are days when I just want to quit...but then I remember my family in blogland.  I know that you have my back and it makes a difference each and every day.  Thanks for the love!!

SMOOCHES

Feeling blah

Sooo...here is the situation!! 

I feel as if I'm going to fail.  I mean I'm 3 months post-op (pictures to come) no substantial weight loss.  I know I shouldn't compare my success to the success of others, but that is easier said than done.  Of course I don't feel that I should be a skinny minnie by now, but I can honestly say I was hoping for more. 

I'm not giving up...no way no how.  I'm just feeling blah about the entire situation.  I don't want to disappoint myself again. 

On a better note...I finally got some sleep.  I even managed to exercise that day.  I have exercised everyday this week except for Thursday.  I'm really proud for keeping the promise I made to myself. 

Also, I said I would weigh myself once a week and post it online.  I totally suck at this.  I never get on the scale...it's just there.  LOL.  I usually only get on the scale when I go to the Dr. 

So there are a pair of jeans I want so badly.  They only go up to a size 18.  I'm so not there yet.  But then again I don't know if I should buy them as motivation.  What if I start losing and stay in an 18 for only a short period of time?  These are $90 jeans...and I'm the cheapest person I know.  I don't want to waste money. 

This post is so all over the place....I apoligize in advance for the randomness of it all.

Ramblings of a sleepy chick

OMG...I'm sitting at my desk and my eyes keep trying to close.  I just want to lay on the floor and take a nap.  Bologna (what we call the baby) did not have a good night last night.  I mean dude was just full of energy.  I kept asking him to go to sleep...and you know what he did...he giggled and smiled at me.  True the smile just melted my heart.  However, it was 2:47 am.  I was not in the smiling mood.  So after staying up with him over an hour...I said screwed this...my shift is over.  I happily proceeded to wake my snoring husband and let him know it was his turn. 

After climbing back in bed and getting all cozy...just when Brownie (my bear) and I were going back to dream land....Wet Noodle (what I call my 1y/o) decides to start screaming "ma ma."  Of course I'm flying through the house like Batgirl to check on my baby.  What does he do when he sees me...giggles and smiles...like it's time to get up and play.  What's with the giggles it's sleepy time.

Needless to say I have not had any sleep.  I get off work at 4.  However, I have to be back at midnight.  I live an hour away from my job.  I will play with the kids...by the time I can lay down it will be 8 o'clock.  I have to wake back up at 9:30 to get ready.  Then drive the hour back to my job.  Which means what....no real sleep for this beautiful butterfly tonight.

On a happier note...I did a full 63 minutes on the dreadmill  treadmill last night.  I was a sweaty mess.  LOL.  I took a picture, but I'm at work and we can't have cell phones on the inside.  I think I sweat more on the treadmill than at Zumba.  I worked at a 1.0 incline between 4.0 to 5.0 mph.  I have also started logging my food.  I'm using my fitness pal.  Doing good so far.

BYOC - Jumping on the Crazy Train

I always read the BYOC post and laugh so hard.  I thought I would join in today.

BYOC Friday….5 little questions you can copy and paste into your blog to get to know each other better and to give your blogging brain a break!

Enjoy!

1. What day of the week do you love and what day of the week do you hate?Love: Monday...it is a fresh start, a black canvass.  I can try to do everything better for the week...or I can tell everyone to kiss my ass for the week.  Either way I love Monday.

Hate:  Saturday...my husband goes to work early, which means I can't sleep in.  I love my kids...I really do, but they wake up to damn early in the morning.  For example, I was up at 5 a.m. today...who do I see sitting on the couch waiting when I walk out, but my 2 y/o.  I'm like ugh...go back to bed.  FYI...I'm so not a morning person.

2. What is your middle name and is there a meaning behind it?
Lynn.  It only became my middle name after I changed my name when I was married.  My birth certificate has me listed as Dawnyalynn.  That is way to damn country for me.  I've always just used Dawnya.  LOL...my grandmother is from Mississippi.

3. Since I’m dreaming of my next tattoo, I’m going to ask this one. Do you have any tattoos? How many? If you don’t have one – what would you get if you did have one?

I have 8 tattoos!! I want more...especially a nice sized back piece. I want to have a phoenix on my back...but only after I lose all the weight.  I can't wait...I also want something small on the inside of my wrist.  All of my tatts are covered during the day...but on my days off they are all hanging out.

4. On that same theme of dirty little secrets…how many piercings do you have? Any you wish you had?

I have 5 piercings.  Two (2) in each ear and one in my tongue.  I love my tongue ring.  I don't wear it all the time...but it's there.  It has served a wonderful purpose.  LOL

5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blog land and in real life.

Blogland is the best!!!  I love all of the people I am meeting and the bonds I am creating.  I get to be completely honest in blogland and not worry about others judging me (okay you might judge me...but you don't say it).  Also...blogland is so motivational...I mean ya'll keep me going when I'm ready to give in.  Blogland has me doing the happy dance for Stephanie Joy who has reached the century mark in her weight loss journey...just in time for her one year bandiversary!!

Real life is hectic as hell.  The kids are so energetic and full of life, while I'm dragging my fat butt.  Real life has me looking for better employment and trying to maintain my sanity at work.  I'm also trying to figure out a way to incorporate exercise into my life at least 5 days a week.  That is the hardest for me.  Food intake is good and bad..but I know it will get better.

First Stuck Episode

OMG it was horrible.  I just knew the toilet was going to swallow me whole as I struggled to push that delicious piece of pork chop through.  LOL 

It hurts so much.  I mean really...why?!?!?  So after a few forced burps that resulted in the nastiest clear flem (sp) I felt better.  I had to walk it off.  I didn't need to throw up.

I never want this to happen again.  I am not a fan of pain.  Not even a little.

Seriously...I need to get it together

Good morning!!  I hope everyone is having a decent week so far.

So I'm so pissed at myself right now.  Here is the situation....bad habits are hard to break!!!  I mean seriously I will eat healthy all day...and then after dinner I just "gotta have"  a sugary treat.  For example, yesterday I actually ate a real breakfast...it was hard, but I made it happen.  Lunch was roast beef and broccoli.  It was feeling and delicious.  Dinner was a small baked potato topped with grilled shrimp, broccoli, low fat cheese and a drizzle of sour cream.  Filled me up.  Did that stop me...Hell nah...I had two (2) chocolate chip cookies.  Ugh!!!!! 

I know it is so stupid!!!  Sweets are my weakness.  I try to keep them out of the house.  Unfortunately, I'm not the only person who goes to the grocery store.  My will power is shot to hell.  I mean I feel like Hannibal Lecter (sp?) at a nudist beach...food everywhere. 

I did manage to exercise 3 days in a row.  Now if only I could get help with my eating.

Oh yeah...lets add in the fact that I feel a need to graze throughout the day.  I don't think it has anything to do with hunger.  I swear I think I do it for entertainment. 

OK...now you know why I'm pissed at myself and seriously thinking of grounding me.  LOL 

Zumba shoes

Today was my third Zumba class.  I am loving the interaction between the two instructors and the class.  I'm a loud mouth...so quiet classes are not for me.  This was a quiet class when I started...they are loud now...LOL  I need that energy to keep me going.

For my experienced Zumba ladies...I need a good pair of shoes to handle the high impact activity.  Thanks in advance for the help.

**Twirling my hips in the chair!! **

Dancing Naked in the Mirror

Hey my sweets!!  I'm back.  I've decided to let go of the blues and get back to dancing in the mirror naked....literally. 

Back story:  A few years ago I took an exotic dance moves class. 

This is how it happened.  The music was going in the bathroom as I prepared to take my shower.  Then one of my favorite songs started to play.  I decided right then and there to give a little striptease...just for me.  Crazy I know...but who better to enjoy this wonderful body then myself.  So there I am stripping off my clothes to the music and then I just lose control and start seriously dancing naked in the mirror. 

I danced through 3 songs before I actually showered.  It was awesome!!  I looked at all my "flaws" as beauty marks.  I grabbed a few handfuls of my stomach and started to laugh and watch it jiggle.  LOL.  It was great.  When I tell you my stomach was jiggling...I mean really showing all my jelly jiggle. 

This naked dance was freeing to me...as I've been in a real funk the last week or so.  It helped me get back to what I want to do.  I want to eliminate the jiggle.  I can't do that feeling sorry for myself.  So no more pity parties for me (I hope). 

Take some time and dance naked in the mirror.  Laugh, cry, scream...but find your freedom.

Weigh in Wednesday

I gained.  I'm at 292.8.  I'm totally okay with it.  This one instance will not define how I continue on my journey. 

Any who...I got my 3rd fill today..1 cc...for a total of 6 cc's in my 10 cc band.  I am excited.  I'm looking forward to getting some restriction.

40 Followers...Woo Hoo!!!

OMG...I have 40 followers ( I still love saying that).  I can't believe it.  I'm so grateful to you all.  Each of you have been an inspiration.  Either through your comments or from my reading of your blog.  Thank you so much for being a part of my journey.

Worn out!!

Sorry I've been missing in action.  I'm just exhausted.  The baby (whom we call Bologna), has been extremely fussy.  We are working through it.  Last night was his best night to date. 

Soooo....I'm feeling a little down.  I have been so exhausted it is hard to workout.  I did complete the last 6 days in January (I took Draz up on her challenge) working out.  However, I just feel like there are not enough hours in my day right now.  By the time I complete everything that needs to be done during the day I head for the shower around 12:30 am.  I get up for work at 5:30 am.  It's like I'm burning the candle at both ends.

Ugh...I just need someone to come in and organize my life.  LOL.  Put me on a workable schedule.  I know it is all up to me...but it sucks right now.