10 Things Thursday

This is my first 10 things Thursday...it's about time.  Thanks Laura Belle!!

1.  I'm love my smile.  The thing is...I miss my smile.  I remember a time in my life when I smiled constantly.  Now...I barely smile.  It breaks my heart.  I think it hurts my husband as well.  I was going through some things the other day and I found a card that he gave me attached to some flowers 12 years ago.  It said "Keep smiling...it makes my world complete."  Ugh...his world must truly be fractured now...because the smile is so rare...it's like a total solar eclipse.

2.  I'm thinking of going back to school (even before I start law school next year).  I'm a professional student.  I know it.  When I win the lottery after I take care of my Kittens...I'm going to keep going to school.  I love it.  Learning new things always makes me feel alive.  I would like to get a degree in Criminology and eventually go work for the F to the B to the I...can't work for the big C to the I to the A because I have to many tattoos....bummer.

3.  I really want to pursue my love for photography more.  I want to spend hours going around taking random pictures of people and things.  I love pictures of people...just naturally living and loving life.  I want to tell a story with my pictures.  I want to feel the life through the pictures.  Unfortunately, I have 3 kids...and my favorite babysitter just started spring soccer...which goes into summer soccer.  Oh well.  I just have to admire the beauty without capturing it.

4.  If I do get to pursue my love for photography the way that I really want.  I'm going to purchase a printer for the house that I can dedicate to printing my photos.  Because no matter where I send them to be printed.  They take liberties to adjusting the colors to meet their own desires.  That doesn't always fit my photos.  For instance...a picture of my daughter was altered so much that she ended up with strawberry blond hair....ummm....NO...totally pissed me off.

5.  I'm grateful to God daily to be employed.  However, at the same time I feel it is my current employment situation that has stolen my smile.  I'm trusting and believing that God will order my steps and help me get where I can reclaim my joy.

6.  In 28 days I will be spending 4 amazing days with some good friends of mine.  I can't wait!!! 

7.  I love my band!!  Some days I'm disappointed that I haven't lost the amount of weight I thought I would have by this time.  But guess what...it's not my band that keeps me from losing the poundage.  It's me!!  I still love my band.  I know I will get there.  Slow and steady wins the race.  So for all my wonderful bandsters who have lost so much weight in short spurts of time.  Good for you!!!!  But for me and Dynamite (my band) we are taking the scenic route.  LOL

8.  I have no shirts that fit.  I put them on...and then they slide down my shoulder.  Hilarious!!  Last night I showed my husband that I only have 3 pair of pants for work.  THREE...and no damn shirts!!  Like seriously dude...I know we are on a po' persons budget...but I need some damn clothes.  It will not be a pretty picture if something falls down at work.  I work in a damn prison for goodness sake.  But he wasn't feeling my dilemma.  Ugh...I don't like him right now.

9.  My kids are under the impression that I should take them to the damn park DAILY!!  Ummm....negative.  The park is not up the street.  It's 10 miles away.  Gas is $3.74....we ain't going to the damn park....suck it up and go play in traffic.  Okay...I don't tell them that...but we are still not going to the park.

10.  Working out is still not a favorite activity for me.  I'm doing it...sometime I love it...most times I want to stab myself in the eye with a rusty butter knife and eat a pint of ben and jerrys phish food.

What had happened was....

....I really did mean to finish the week off strong with exercise...but it didn't happen. I didn't beat myself up about it either.  However, I felt the difference when I went to BP last night.  My body was tired.  It didn't want to pump it up at all.  LOL

I made it through and I'm going back tonight. Going to try running a 5K on Wednesday...and a dance off on Thursday.  Any exercise after that is extra.

I was planning on putting on the Rollerblades.  But one of my kids has hidden one of them.  Dang bad children of mine.  LOL.  I'm still looking for it.

In other news....I need a vacation.  I'm so sleepy right now I could fall face first on my desk.  Ugh.  I hate when I'm super sleepy like this.

Tamara Blue - Thick Chicks

I love this chick!!  I love the confidence that she exudes.  My journey is to be healthy.  I will ALWAYS be a THICK CHICK!!

Healthy living

This healthy lifestyle can be hit or miss for me some days.  For instance, last week I couldn't get enough exercise.  This week...I've only worked out ONCE!!!  WTF?!?!?  I figured it out.  I didn't meal plan this week.  When I don't meal plan I eat whatever...not bad...but not food that fuels my body.  So in essence I have felt really sluggish...not wanting to do anything.  The week isn't over though.  There are 2 more days...which means I can still get in some exercise.  That is the plan as of now.  To finish the week strong.

Howe is everyone this week.  I've been reading the blogs...but not commenting.  I usually read and comment at work...but with the new DOJ rules in place...I'm limiting my Internet access at work.  Trust me when I tell you it is hard...especially on Friday.  I have no desire to do much of anything...but surf the web.

Have a FABULOUS weekend everyone. 

New Low

Saw a new low on the scale during my weekly weigh-in.  I'm super excited!!  I'm 10 lbs away from meeting my end of April goal.  I'm excited.

Tonight is BP.  Not really looking forward to it.  But I gotta meet my goals...which means going to the dang gym.  BTW.  I ran another 3K at the gym on Friday morning.  I didn't enjoy it as much on the treadmill as I did outside.  We shall try it again tonight. 

OMG...the StairMaster is evil.  But I will prevail.

Have an awesome week.

My First 3K

Remember I promised myself that I would work out 5 days this week.  I'm keeping my promise.  Two days down...three to go.  Yesterday I went home and I did drag my kids around in the wagon.  We went on a 1.5 mile walk to the park (3 mile walk combined).  Then we played on the swings.  After getting them fed, bathed and settled in bed I relaxed and watched an episode of CSI: Miami. 

Then it was time for my real workout.  So I laced up my running shoes and hit the pavement.  I completed a 3K run in 31 minutes and 41 seconds.  Sounds horrible right.  But who cares.  I ran the entire thing minus the 5 minute warm up.  I'm pretty stoked about it. 

Tonight will more than likely include a run or rollerblading.  It depends on how early I put the kids down. 

Hope everyone is having an awesome week.  It's hump day....so hump away.

I wanna swim

I never learned how to swim.  In high school we were required to take a swim class for one semester.  I was registered for the class.  Instead of taking the class...I dated the teacher.  Ugh...I know...horrible...but true.  I didn't want to mess up my hair.

I regret that decision now.  I really wish I new how to swim.  I would love to go to the gym and jump in the pull and swim laps.  I'm sure that is a great form of exercise.  The plan is to take swim lessons.  I will as soon...I hope. 

Last night was BP.  I went...and the entire time I wanted to slap the instructor.  She does not interact well with the class.  She never checks form.  She is to busy getting her workout in.  I guess I like interaction.  I actually upped my weights yesterday so that was exciting.  I'm looking forward to the next class.  Tonight I'm going to throw the kids in the wagon and pull them around the subdivision.  This will be a great workout because they are heavy.  LOL.  No...I will actually  go for a run tonight after I put my kiddos to sleep.

Hope everyone is having a fantastic week so far.  If not...remember...it could be worse.

I gots nada

Nothing to report.  Last week was a wash on the exercise front.  I just wanted to sleep.  So this week I'm going to work out 5 days.  Ugh...the horror of it all.  I have to make up though.  I have goals I need to meet.

I haven't had a fill since November.  I would not say I'm in my sweet spot...but I'm not in need.  I'm learning to control my intake on me own.  However, I have one schedule 2 days after I return from my girls weekend at the end of April.  I will need it by then. 

I am running out of clothes that fit.  Yup.  I have a handful of shirts and pants that I can wear to work.  OMG...and my selection for church is even smaller.  It's all good though.  I will wait until they are falling off before I go shopping.  On the weekends I live in my workout clothes...not because they are super cute...but I have no shirts to go with the crap load of jeans Boo gave me.  Oh well.

Have an awesome week!!

I'm soooo sleepy

I didn't make it to BP last night.  I planned on it..but I was/am tired.  I pulled into my drive way and took a 10 minute power nap in the car before going in to deal with my household.  All I wanted to do was go to sleep.  Instead I played with the kids and cleaned my bathrooms (I clean the bathrooms every other day...I can't stand a dirty bathroom).  After putting the kids to bed at 7 I wanted to go to sleep myself.  Then I remembered...duh I haven't eaten anything.  I hate waking up hungry so I peddled around until Charles made it home and I had a sandwich.  Nothing heavy.  Hit the spot. 

So off to bed I go after showering and ironing.  Only problem...Book 2 of the Hunger Game Trilogy.  Sigh...I was so close to being done.  I should just finish it then go to sleep.  Which is what I did.  But dang if it wasn't already 11:45 pm.  Tonight...I'm going to be at 8.   I don't care.  I want to sleep.

I cleaned up the Rollerblades.  But I can't find my knee pads.  I will keep yall posted on when the fateful event will happen.  LOL  There may even be pictures.

BTW...I used my 30 minute lunch to take a nap...just sad.

Thankful in spite of

Things have been going to the dogs in my life as of late.  But guess what.  I'm still thankful to God for all He has done for me and will continue to do for me.  I'm going to keep doing what I know how to do and that is survive.

I say this to tell you...don't give up on yourself or your situation when it gets to hard.  Giving up allows the other part to win.  I refuse to let them beat me.  I will not only get through this, but I will come out of it brand new.

In other news....

I went to an early morning Body Pump class on Friday.  Let me just say it was the best BP class I have taken.  The instructor was awesome and lively.  Although it was a nice size class, I didn't have to fight for room wot workout.  It was great.  I can't wait to go to this class every other Friday morning.  Tonight I have BP...but before it starts I will get to get in at least 45 minutes of Cardio.  Thank goodness.

My weight dropped a pound...then went back up that same pound.  Craziness.  But I'm moving on.  I have my meals for the week planned out.  Well at least my dinner meals.  I never plan my lunch anymore.  Crazy, but I don't.  I just grab what's in the fridge or I eat out of the chow hall while at work.

I was cleaning out this closet this weekend and found my Rollerblades.  I totally want to put them to use again.  I will give it a try one day this week and let you know how it goes.  I just hope nothing gets broken.

Have a great week!!

With love,