WassUp?!?!

Okay...so I've been absent.  Shit happens.

I've decided I need to get back to logging my food...because honey...it has been a sin and a shame around these here parts.  I work out 5 times a week...but it doesn't matter if you are getting crap.  So I'm back on my hustle.  I log with my/fitness/pal.  If you want to be friends my handle is: lynnd719

Let's share our food sins together.  LOL

Other than that...nothing special going on in my life.

Maybe I will post something more important next time.

Tired of excuses

I've made all types of excuses last week of why I couldn't exercise...and I didn't.  It's a shame and a sin.  Now today I'm sitting here feeling extra plump.  LOL

Well this week I will get back to my regularly scheduled program.  At leas 5 days of activities this week.  No bullshit.  I might even try to get off the sauce (sugar) again. 

Here's to a healthy week. 

It's a new day

Today is a day that you can get it right.  Everyday is a time to start fresh.  Stop beating yourself up about what happened yesterday or last night...it's over...the past can't be changed...it's the past...let it go.

Have a great week!!!

Ten Things Thursday....yeah it's still Wednesday

I love these fuck sensitivity pictures...they crack me up.  So I'm using them for my post today.

1.   put on some damn clothes cow!!

2.  Yup...I've been offending people all week.  I don't give a rat's ass about your feeligns at this point.  I'm doing me...so kiss my entire ass!!

3.  Fo' true...I can't stand a liar.  If you are going to lie to me you should just spit in my face...because you obviously don't care....back up off me folks...I don't have the time.

4.  I give zero fucks and I have zero tolerance for bullshit.  Don't make me slap your ass!!!  LOL

5.  My great grandmother says I don't have a filter.  She is right.  I will go in on your ass...because I can.  I don't care if my hautiness upsets you...suck my big toe.

6.  This shit is funny!!!  LOL

7.  Like that little person who thinks he is my boss.  I will stomp your ass...leave me alone.  I don't care that you asked me to do it twice.  I'm not fucking doing it at all.  When you understand that...then let's talk.  NOT!!!

8.  Please, please, please stop talking to me...I don't like you.

9.  My give a damn's busted...yall know I love me some country music.  LOL

10.  Keep it moving.

Okay...guess what yall.  I'm not mad at anyone in particular...I'm just mad about all the crazy shit that has been going on.  people lying to my face when I know the truth.  I hate liars...to me...they are on the same level of scum as a cho-mo (child molester). 

I have Bikram yoga tonight.  I haven't been in a week...I need it...can't you tell.  LOL.  I hope everyone is having a great week. 

Fake friends

Hello my lovlies!!!  How are you all doing?  So I got an attitude.

Let's talk about friends...or pretend friends.  Seriously, people if you call yourself my friend you will always be there for me.  Especially when this thing called life gets out of control.  Everybody is telling their business on FB...if you know it has to do with me...and your supposed to be my friend...call and say...hey girl...you alright. 

If I always have to be the one listening to your worries and drama, but yet you never have time to let me vent...because your broken nail was a damn emergency...bitch you ain't now...nor have you ever been my friend.

Pick up the phone sometime...just to say hi....don't call me with all this bullshit all the time.  Hell I got my own drama to deal with...I don't have time for your shit too.

Listen...as a matter of fact...let's not be friends!!!

RANT OVER!!!

Ten Things Thursday

This is all Laura...this is my 2nd time giving this a try...I think.

1.  This is my short week...so today is actually my Friday...I'm so freaking excited I could moonwalk right now.

2.  My job is still the bain of my existence...seriously...my spirit dies a little everyday in this place.

3.  Potty training my 2 y/o son must be punishment for something I did in a former life.  This kid is not cooperating.  He is he is so cute.

4.  This is my week to do 4 yoga classes...I'm super excited.  Bikram yoga is the bees knees.  You should give it a try.  One class and I was hooked.

5.  I live in the allergy capital of the world...Central Texas.  If my eye does not stop running soon I'm going to scream.  Like seriously...it's almost like I'm crying.  I have a trail of ashy tears running down my cheek...not sexy at all.

6.  I DON'T CARE THAT JENNIFER ANISTON IS ENGAGED!!!  Maybe that means people will start calling her a man thief...since she did take him from his other fiance.  Ugh...by the way...I'm not a fan.  I will not go see any movies...no matter how good they look if they star Jennifer Aniston or Jennifer Lopez...the tramps couldn't act their way out of a brown paper bag.

7.  I'm HONGRY...like I could eat a small village if given the chance.  However...I still have restriction in my empty band. It is amazing.  LOL 

8.  My best friend is coming to Austin in October.  I'm so excited.  It will be her first time seeing the kids in person.  She is their godmother.  If anything ever happens to myself or Charles the kids are hers.  I think she is more excited about her weekend with the kids instead of spending time with me.  But who cares.  She will be here.

9.  I think I need a new tattoo.  It has been almost a year since I felt the needle pierce my skin.  I guess I will go see my guy while I'm at B3.

10.  I'm so darn cute...I can't stand it.  LOL

Friday...how I love you...let me count the ways

I'm so excited about it being Friday.  Just knowing that I don't have to come here again for 2 days makes my heart pitter patter.

Crying for me

I woke up this morning with my grandfather on my mind.  He has been gone for 19 years...but I still remember him like it was just yesterday.  He was my bestfriend.  Today is my Uncle's birthday.  He passed away 1 year ago.  I dedicate this song to those wonderful men.

Boo Boo honey chile

Well I just want to say this...I LOVE MY BAND!!!  At the moment by band does not love me.  Apparently when my band was placed it was placed in an awkward position.  This is liked what caused my slip and dilation in May.  Well that resolved itself and I received a fill in June and another fill in July.  Well I went in today for a fill.  Guess what...my band is dilated and has slipped again.  I was upset at first.  But now I'm calm.  This will require them going in and fixing the issue.  Am I going to let them...NOPE.

As much as I love my band it's time to let it go.  This is the 2nd slip in 2 months.  I'm not one for giving second and third chances.  LOL.  I'm going to have my band removed.  Not sure when.  I meet with a different surgeon on August 23rd.  This will all take place either before or after B3.  For now I'm on liquids for 7 days.  Ha...I hate liquids. 

I say all of this to say.  I am still an advocate for the band...I will still recommend the band to others before any other surgery.  My band has helped me lose and keep off 60 lbs.  Is my journey over.  Hell no...it is just beginning.

Until next time my loves...

I have zero fucks to give

Yep...that is the title.  It ain't mine.  It comes from the fabulous chick name Franceta.  She talks about confidence in this recent vlog post.  It is nice. I love it...because It is me.  It's how I feel everyone should live their lives.

To many times we give others to much power over how we feel about ourselves.  Why?!  My philosophy is fuck 'em and feed 'em catfish.  You ain't running a damn thing in my life.  So for those who are still struggling with the power of believing in and loving yourself...check out this video.

What had happened was...

...there were still 2 cupcakes at home.  I wanted to just ignore them...but they were whispering to me...and I answered...it was the least I could do...they needed to be put out of their misery.

Now that ALL temptation is gone...we are back on track.

I wasn't going to workout last night.  But after saving those cupcakes I had to.  Thank goodness I burn 691 calories during Bikram.  It's wonderful.  This is my favorite pose


Today...no Bikram.  I'm doing a 2 mile run/walk/jog/dance off.  LOL.  Sometimes when I'm out for a run the music gets so good...I just have to stop and boogie right there in the street.  LOL.  Good thing I run at night. 

Hope everyone is having a great week.

Updates

I stayed true to my sugar detox from Monday night until Friday night.  Friday was my 10 year wedding anniversary.  My husband and I shared a delicious Godiva chocolate molten cake with ice cream...yummy.  Saturday was a no sugar day.  Sunday there were 2 yummy cupcakes that I made for my daughter's fourth birthday.  I'm back on the sugar detox today.

BTW...it works because I lost 3 pounds.

In other news...my 30 day fitness challenge is scheduled to end tomorrow.  However...I'm kicking it up a notch and making it a 60 day fitness challenge.  I'm looking forward to seeing even more changes to my body...inside and out.

Have a great week.

P.S.  Thanks for all of your comments from my last post.

Wind knocked out of me

So I just had the wind knocked out of my sails.  I was super excited about several jobs I planned on applying for within my agency.  Only to find out...because I'm already in the agency...my education would not qualify me for the position....even though it says it would right in the vacancy announcement.  Instead...I need to have the education and the time-in-grade requirements....which it doesn't say in the vacancy announcement.  My head hurts....my heart hurts and I'm ready to just give up. 

I'm not a cryer...only when I'm really upset...or it's a Hallmark Hall of Fame movie.  But right now I'm fighting to keep the tears from falling down my face. The people at Ooo Pee Mmm can't help me...the people at Dee Ooo Jay are giving me the run around....and the people I work with never have answers.  It seems I'm doomed to sit in this office as a secretary for the next 15 years.  Yippie for me.

Is this enough reason to go back on sugar?  I think so!!!

One day clean of sugar

I'm one day clean from the junk sugar.  I have to say...it went better than expected.  Big thank you to Angela and Vanessa.  You ladies rock.

Just wanted to share that quicky. 

SMOOCHES

I need a twelve step program for sugar

My sugar detox started yesterday...it was a total bust!!!!  If it had sugar...I wanted it.  There may have been a situation with a kitkat, a almond Hershey and some sandwich cookies...but I don't remember...I was in sugar heaven.  Hell I would have sucked on a sugar cube if I had one.  Oh that reminds me of sucking on sugar canes and a kid...good times.

Anyway...the minute I said I would quit...the sugar monster showed up.  I broke weak.  But today is a new day.  So far...no sugar.  I had breakfast of cereal (raisin bran crunch), lunch of chicken thighs small helping of mashed potatoes....no cravings yet.  I'm trying...good gosh I'm trying.

In other news...I haven't exercised since my actual birthday...what the what...yup..crazy.  I will go back to yoga on Thursday.  I can only get there 4 days a week...which are usually the 2 days Charles is off work and the 2 days he has to go to work late.  But I love those 4 days.  So I'm thinking I'm going to do a C25K program.  I run...but not nearly as long as I would like.  Why not try something different.  Well different for me.  I'm actually hoping to go back to Zumba.  Gosh I miss that stuff.

Dinner tonight...I have no damn clue.  But there will be a workout tonight.  Bike riding or running...but sweat will be involved. 
Have an awesome day...and remember...everyday is a new day to get it right.