Yes...it's coming back up. Unlike many...I'm not afraid of losing the weight and getting to goal (though it is taking longer than I would like). I'm afraid of my ability to succeed in a professional setting. Sure, I'm qualified...but how will I ever know if I don't submit the resume. I guess getting so many green bills makes me afraid to try again. It is eating me up inside. What if I do/say the wrong thing. Ugh. I really want this job. However, I will feel like an utter failure if I don't even BQ. So frustrating!! Well back to work on my resume I go. I will apply. I will BQ...and this job will be mine. If God says the same!!
BTW...there is no need to comment on this post. I just needed to get it out. Charles would only be his encouraging self...I just wanted to vent. PLEASE DO NOT RESPOND!!! Thanks!!
5 comments:
I have a bit of oppositional defiance and when you tell me not to do something I have an overwhelming compulsion to do it. :) you know my thoughts on the job situation.....love ya!
I totally feel you. I am trying to get back to work but I am terrified to the point of panic attacks when I sit down to do my resumes.
Oh, I'm responding. Nothing you can do about it!
Encouragement! :)
You're not the boss of me! Break a leg, angel!
What's BQ? Is that allowed?
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