What had happened was...

...there were still 2 cupcakes at home.  I wanted to just ignore them...but they were whispering to me...and I answered...it was the least I could do...they needed to be put out of their misery.

Now that ALL temptation is gone...we are back on track.

I wasn't going to workout last night.  But after saving those cupcakes I had to.  Thank goodness I burn 691 calories during Bikram.  It's wonderful.  This is my favorite pose


Today...no Bikram.  I'm doing a 2 mile run/walk/jog/dance off.  LOL.  Sometimes when I'm out for a run the music gets so good...I just have to stop and boogie right there in the street.  LOL.  Good thing I run at night. 

Hope everyone is having a great week.

Updates

I stayed true to my sugar detox from Monday night until Friday night.  Friday was my 10 year wedding anniversary.  My husband and I shared a delicious Godiva chocolate molten cake with ice cream...yummy.  Saturday was a no sugar day.  Sunday there were 2 yummy cupcakes that I made for my daughter's fourth birthday.  I'm back on the sugar detox today.

BTW...it works because I lost 3 pounds.

In other news...my 30 day fitness challenge is scheduled to end tomorrow.  However...I'm kicking it up a notch and making it a 60 day fitness challenge.  I'm looking forward to seeing even more changes to my body...inside and out.

Have a great week.

P.S.  Thanks for all of your comments from my last post.

Wind knocked out of me

So I just had the wind knocked out of my sails.  I was super excited about several jobs I planned on applying for within my agency.  Only to find out...because I'm already in the agency...my education would not qualify me for the position....even though it says it would right in the vacancy announcement.  Instead...I need to have the education and the time-in-grade requirements....which it doesn't say in the vacancy announcement.  My head hurts....my heart hurts and I'm ready to just give up. 

I'm not a cryer...only when I'm really upset...or it's a Hallmark Hall of Fame movie.  But right now I'm fighting to keep the tears from falling down my face. The people at Ooo Pee Mmm can't help me...the people at Dee Ooo Jay are giving me the run around....and the people I work with never have answers.  It seems I'm doomed to sit in this office as a secretary for the next 15 years.  Yippie for me.

Is this enough reason to go back on sugar?  I think so!!!

One day clean of sugar

I'm one day clean from the junk sugar.  I have to say...it went better than expected.  Big thank you to Angela and Vanessa.  You ladies rock.

Just wanted to share that quicky. 

SMOOCHES

I need a twelve step program for sugar

My sugar detox started yesterday...it was a total bust!!!!  If it had sugar...I wanted it.  There may have been a situation with a kitkat, a almond Hershey and some sandwich cookies...but I don't remember...I was in sugar heaven.  Hell I would have sucked on a sugar cube if I had one.  Oh that reminds me of sucking on sugar canes and a kid...good times.

Anyway...the minute I said I would quit...the sugar monster showed up.  I broke weak.  But today is a new day.  So far...no sugar.  I had breakfast of cereal (raisin bran crunch), lunch of chicken thighs small helping of mashed potatoes....no cravings yet.  I'm trying...good gosh I'm trying.

In other news...I haven't exercised since my actual birthday...what the what...yup..crazy.  I will go back to yoga on Thursday.  I can only get there 4 days a week...which are usually the 2 days Charles is off work and the 2 days he has to go to work late.  But I love those 4 days.  So I'm thinking I'm going to do a C25K program.  I run...but not nearly as long as I would like.  Why not try something different.  Well different for me.  I'm actually hoping to go back to Zumba.  Gosh I miss that stuff.

Dinner tonight...I have no damn clue.  But there will be a workout tonight.  Bike riding or running...but sweat will be involved. 
Have an awesome day...and remember...everyday is a new day to get it right.

New Year and New Goals

My new year has started and I'm so excited about the possibilities!!!  I have several goals in place for my new year.  I will share them eventually...but right now I'm just enjoying the newness of the year.

On another note...I'm super excited the birthday cake is gone.  I'm a sucker for some cake.  Okay...I'm a sucker for cake, ice cream, cookies, candy...anything with sugar in it and I'm a goner.  In an effort to get the sugar out of my system I'm quitting cold turkey.  Yup...now don't get it twisted...there will be sugar in my life...in the form of fruits and those attached to my oatmeal.  Fluffy talked about it in this post on her blog.  Other than that none of the crap that I love.  I'm going to try to make it an entire week.  Have mercy.  I know I can do it...but it's going to be hard.

I hope everyone has a fantastic week!!!

Let's talk about NSV's

Today is a great day.  It is one day before my birthday and I have 2 NSV's to report.  First...I am wearing the cutest button down shirt today.  It's kinda peachy.  I love this shirt. I love it the first time I saw it.  So I immediately purchased it for MY HUSBAND.  That's right...I'm wearing Charles shirt today.  This is a HUGE NSV.  Charles is 6' tall and weight about 175-185 any given day of the week.  He has stayed in that range for the 12 years we have been together.  But today...I'm wearing his shirt.  Holy hell...it's a great day.  I've been trying on his shirts for months now...hoping they would fit.  They never did.  But last night...it fit. I was hoping he wouldn't notice that I was borrowing his shirt.  But when he was ironing my clothes he came in and asked why he was ironing his shirt.  I jumped up in the bed and started screaming...it finally fits me...it finally fits me!!!  LOL

Second NSV...I have this same shirt tucked into my pants.  Yup...my shirt is tucked in.  I have not worn my shirts tucked in since I gained weight.  I'm starting to do it more often.  But I have the skinny husband's shirt tucked into my pants.  I'm feeling real good right now.  LOL

This is important...because that flat chested whore I call a scale is evil.  So I just proved that her funky calculations are crap...and I'm doing what needs to be done to get where I'm trying to go.  What NSV's have you had recently?

I hope everyone is having a great week.  Happy Wednesday!!

Tracking

I suck at tracking my food.  This is something I really want to do...and do well..but I suck at it.  I cook pretty much every meal we eat at home.  I just don't have time to measure each ingredient to determine what the nutritional value will be.  I prefer to cook over prepackaged food.  I'm cooking for 6 people.  That would make the process even longer.  I want to cook and be done.  Because I have to rush out of the house to make it to Bikram by 7 pm. 

So what is a girl to do?  So frustrating because I need to eliminate some of these carbs from my life.  But the majority of the time I'm not sure how many I'm eating a day. I'll try it again next week.

By the way...all of you people who prepare your food in advance for the week...my hats are off to you.  I can't do it.  I tried...and it was a waste.  I don't eat leftovers...and even though I hadn't ate the food...it felt like leftovers to me.  So it was never eaten.  I'm to cheap to waste food so that hasn't happened again.  LOL

Users and exercise.

So this might bite some people on the ass and piss them off...which could result in a mass unfollowing of my blog...but I really don't care.

STOP BEING USERS!!!!  Yes....those people w ho use the blogs for support and inspiration to reach their weight loss goals..then disappear once they have made it.  Not lending support to the others that are still trying to make it there.  Just use them up and then walk away.  Or the ones of you who will only comment on a blog if they have commented on yours.  Grow up and stop being childish.  This is not the elementary school playground people.

You are selfish.  If you don't plan on supporting others the way they supported you when you needed it...you are an inconsiderate, selfish asshole!!!!!!  I wish you would just go fuck yourself in the butt with no vaseline!!!!

I hate a few things in life...liars and users are at the top of my list.

Okay...I just needed to get that off my chest.

In other news....my weight is finally going back down after the unfill.  I'm excited to see the scale move when I step on it each week.  It makes my heart flutter.  LOL

I really do love a good workout.  I have committed myself to 5 days a week of Bikram Yoga and 3 days of running.  I still take my 2 days of rest...more if I just don't want to do it.  The kickball tryout was cancelled due to excessive ran.  Oh...I'm cancelling my gym membership.  It is through my health insurance.  I had enjoyed working out at 24 hour fitness, but they are leaving the network.  Anytime Fitness is coming into the network...but I don't like any of their locations.  So I'm not going to pay for something I'm not using.  I'm entirely to cheap for that.

My food choices have been pretty good.  However, there are some days that don't look so great. LOL.  I'm going to celebrate my birthday with dinner at Ruth Chris Steakhouse.  I love that place.   Yummy.

I hope everyone has enjoyed their week.  If I don't talk to you before tomorrow...Have an awesome weekend!!!

Fill and challenge update

Challenges are hard.  LOL.  Not really. I just happened to take a week off work and didn't want to do anything.  However, I have kept up with my challenge.  Running, Bikram yoga, cardio.  Tomorrow I'm going to try out for a kickball team.  Yup...the same kickball of our youths.  I'm looking forward to it.  Not looking forward to their early morning weekend games though.  LOL  I just need to keep mixing it up or I will stop working out. 

I went in for a fill on Thursday (7/5).  It was my second fill since the slip.  Before the fill that resulted in a slip I was at 7.7 and happy and doing well there for 4 months.  I'm at 7.5 currently.  I had to remind myself to chew, chew, chew...because that had gone out the window since the unfill.  LOL...needless to say to large a bite and not chewing well enough reminded me quickly.

Nothing else exciting in my life.  How about you?

It's my Birth Month!!

If you didn't know...I LOVE MY BIRTHDAY!!!!  I celebrate the entire month.  Nothing big...just enjoying my life and preparing for my "new year".  This year I'm celebrating my birth month with a 31 day fitness challenge.  I tried to compete a 30 day challenge in June but I was sick for almost 2 weeks.  Well I'm doing it again.  Day 1 was 90 minutes of open eyed meditation in a room with a temperature of 105 degrees with 40% humidity.  I loved ever minute of it.  My body was feeling it today...I can't wait to go back tomorrow.  Day 2 was a 2 mile run.  My breathing has improved a great deal since I started the yoga.

I hope everyone has a great week.