Life, life, life, life...

Life is hard sometime!!!  I'm not one to complain (okay...yes I am).  Sometimes it seems like I take 1 foot forward and tumble backwards down a flight of stairs. If it ain't one thing it's another. I'm just tired.  I don't even want to go see my therapist.  He can only talk to me...he can't fix my problems.  I want shit to be fixed.  I want it to be better.  I'm tired...so so tired.

In other non dramatic news my daughter started kindergarten on Monday.  Her first day went great.  She even came home with her folder indicating she had a good day.  Unfortunately, it didn't go as well the second day.  Her folder stated that she did not listen.  Well if you know me you know I don't play.  I believe children should be respectful to others.  It is how I was raised and it is how I'm raising my child.  So last night my 5 year old had to write sentences.  LOL.  It wasn't required by the teacher...but it is required by this momma.  Her sentence was "I will listen."  She had to fill up both sides of the page.  No TV watching for the night and no toys or playing with her brothers.  The only privilege she didn't lose was her bedtime story.  Needless to say...she did not like being punished.  I hope she remembers that and behaves today. 

The damn scale...yeah...that whore.  I'm 7 pounds away from my goal.  The scale will not go down.  It's a conspiracy.  I know I will get there...but it is truly messing with my time line that I set for myself. 

One of my best friends moved to Texas.  She is now 3.5 hours away as opposed to 18 hours away.  However, I haven't seen her yet.  I'm hoping to remedy that situation this weekend.

I love, love, love Bikram yoga. Every time I walk into that studio I ask myself why I do this bullshit.  But by the end of the class I know.  I feel a calmness about myself and I need that.  It helps me stay focused and it doesn't hurt that I burn about 422 calories per class.  However, I really do need to find another workout that I enjoy. I need more.  On the days that I don't have yoga I have tried to do a DVD, but I'm always bored and irritated before it's all said and done. 

It's so great to see so many people blogging again.  Congratulations to all of you who are still losing weight or maintaining weight.  A hug of encouragement to those who are struggling.  No that it's a journey...not a race...take it one day at a time. 

Life is meant to be lived...

...even when you want to bury your head in the sand. Hey there my loves. I finished the 30 day Bikram yoga challenge and lived to tell it. I also lost 10pounds during the challenge. I love how knowing I have yoga makes me drink my water. It has made a difference in my weight loss. Here is my new favorite posture...especially since I can do it now. Standing bow pulling pose

July was awesome. It was my birth month, my anniversary month and my daughter turned 5.  Charles and I had a kid free weekend for my birthday. We did dinner and an amusement park. We also had brunch with my boo, Angela. It was a good weekend.

I spent our anniversary school supply shopping for our daughter....I want my money back $93.13...it's kindergarten for goodness sake. She enjoyed her birthday at home with gifts and cake as well as a trip to the inflatable play land.

Weight loss is going great!!! I've lost 77 lbs in seven and a half months. My surgeon is pleased and I'm happier than a sissy in a pickle patch. I'm 7 lbs away from my first goal of 185.

finally. ..

I have made it to the land of oneder. LOL

Hey there

I've been meaning to blog...but I've been lazy. I'm reading and occasionally commenting on your blogs. My best friend was here for a visit and we had so much fun.  Here are a couple of pics from us hitting the town. We were celebrating our 35th year of life. We usually spend our actual birthdays together, but life and kids has made that impossible the last couple of years. So this year we just picked a month. It was great having her here and I cried when she left.

In the photos I'm 6 months out from revision and weighing in at 205. This was the weekend of June 21st. She went to my six month follow up with the surgeon. I'm doing great and have lost over 60% of my excess body weight.

In other news I'm doing a 30 day Bikram yoga challenge. It is going to kill me. I'm over it already...but I'll keep going. My birthday is coming up and Charles and I are going to spend the day at great America riding roller coasters. I'm super excited.

bloglovin

I added a button to follow my blog on bloglovin'.  I'm not sure if I've completely figured it out yet.  But I don't want to lose my followers.  I have lots to say.  Well I think I do. So hit the link and follow me.

Blogger sucks

My blog roll is gone. No blogs are showing up. Is anyone else having this problem?

Hey, hey, hey

Hello my good people!!!  How's it hanging?  Let's start with some updates.

I'm 6 months out since my revision from band to sleeve.  I'm happy with my progress...although I'm 3 lbs short of meeting my personal 6 month goal of being below 200 (I'm stuck at 202).  I've lost a total of 63 lbs since the revision.  I'm happy with those numbers. 
Besides the numbers on the scale my journey with WLS has been nothing short of amazing.  I'm doing more physically active things with my kids and by myself.  I'm not always sitting around...though I do watch a lot of TV.  I'm buying clothes at any store.  I'm good.

I hope everyone is doing well. 

Goals, goals, goals

Has anyone ever canceled an appointment to see their surgeon because the scale isn't moving?  Mmm...kay...me either!!!

Seriously though...my surgeons goals are irrelevant to me.  But my own personal goals are very important.  The damn scale is stuck.  I refuse to let it stay that way.  I'm 22 lbs away from my initial goal and 32 lbs away from my "damn girl you bad" goal.

I'm going to get there before my birthday in 2 months.  I will make it happen.

I hope everyone has a great long weekend. 

Remember Memorial day is a time to honor those who fought for our freedom.

A whole lotta nothing

I've been planning this big EPIC 300th post.  But I got nothing.  You see my life is nothing but the same stuff different day.  I wake up, I go to work, I come home, I play with kids, I work out (again), then I go to bed.  Nothing changes.  Occasionally, I may go on a day trip or hang out at the park...but my life is pretty uneventful.  Sorry.

My stay off the scale challenge was a total bust.  I couldn't stay away after my 10 mile run/walk.  I wanted to know if it made a difference.  It didn't.  My damn scale has barely moved for weeks.  Then I start my cycle and drop 3 lbs.  Who does that?  My body is so strange.  I lose during my cycle when everyone else gains.  Crazy.

The good news is.  I am officially, 104 lbs lighter than I was on November 15, 2010.  The last 58 lbs were lost since my revision from band to sleeve.  I'm so excited.  I weigh 207 lbs as of Sunday, May 12, 2013. 

I'm back to working out.  I hadn't moved much since the race on April 14th.  I just didn't have it in me.  But now...I'm back to Bikram yoga.  Yup...I saved my money to pay for 6 months of yoga.  Who the hell pays to go in a hot ass room for 1.5 hours to damn near die...this idiot obviously.  But I'm so excited.  I started back on Friday, May 10th.  Today will make 4 days in a row that I have gone.  I'm aiming for 4 days a week.  I'm also going to get back to running/walking/dancing a few nights a week.  However, I really want to try the Jamie Eason (I think that is how you spell her name) 12 week workout.  We shall see.

I'm finally doing better on getting my water in daily.  I think it is because I know I need to get and stay hydrated in order to effectively participate in a Bikram yoga class. 

In other news...my kids are growing like weeds and they are the best kiddos ever.  The get on my last damn nerve...but they make me laugh and smile all at the same time. 

I'm still looking for employment.  That is the story of my life.  I'm not giving up. 

So that's that.  I hope everyone has a great week.

I did it!!!

I ran/walked/cried through 10 miles.  I finished my race.  I got my medal and I promised never to do somethign that foolish again.  LOL

No seriously,  I'm so proud of this accomplishment....people have been really negative about my decision to participate in this race.  But I showed up...which is more than some do...and I put my feet on the ground and finished.  That's all that matters.  I finished.

When I heard the news about Boston on yesterday afternoon...all I could do was cry.  I was so saddened by the obvious disregard for human life that I felt numb inside.


Please pray for the city of Boston and for all the runners who participated in the race from across the globe. 

Living in the closet and the scale

I'm living in the closet about my weight loss surgery.  Yup...I'm hiding out.  Here is the thing...I'm not ashamed of my surgery.  Never have been and I never will be.  However, I am was afraid of failing...so I didn't tell anyone but my immediate family and my best friends.  Now that I am having some success with my weight loss...I'm still in the closet.  The thing is...if someone ask me what I'm doing...I tell them I'm eating smaller portions...I'm exercising more...and I had WLS.  I never lie if I'm directly asked about it.  The thing is I don't feel it is anyone's business.  That's just me.  I'm not an overly private person..but there are somethings I just don't feel the need to share.  My WLS is one of those things.  I'm friends with many of you on FB and you have recently witness me post workout or food photos.  Thank you for your encouraging words.  I would just ask that you don't mention my WLS on FB as it is no body's business but mine.  Thank you in advance.

Do you ever get tired of people mentioning your weight loss.  I never thought I would say this...but I'M SICK TO DEATH OF IT.  Like seriously...if we see each other several times a week...I dont' need you to remind me that I've lost weight.  Fool...I know that.  I hate to sound ungrateful...but I don't want to talk about my weight.  I'm not good at accepting compliments.  Yes...this is from the girl who loves being the center of attention.  Just let me be me without mentioning the obvious.  That would be ideal.  I know it won't happen...and I will try to get better at accepting the compliment instead of trying to direct the conversation to another topic. 

I've been sleeved for 17 weeks (4 months) now.  Whew how time flys when your eating smaller portions.  LOL  I'm down a total of 48 lbs.  Which brings my grand total weight loss since being banded in 2010 to 94 lbs gone FORFUCKINGEVER!!!!!  I'm happy with the numbers...but please know I'm not stopping.  I"m going to keep going until I reach that magical place....lol...sorry I'm watching someone eat lucky charms.  LOL  No seriously...I'm good.  I know where I want to go and how to get there.

How often do you weigh?  A lady in one of my support groups says she only steps on the scale every 6 weeks.  She says she allows her clothes to tell her how successful she is.  I'm thinking about giving it a try.  That damn scale is evil.  It hasn't moved this week...even though I've been playing with my calories just to get it going.  Nada.  So I'm going to give the scale a break.  I'm not going to step back on until Wednesday May 8th.  Well at least that is the plan.   LOL

Wear your day well my friends...wear your day well.

Stuff

So I made these fish tacos tonight. OMG they were yummy in my tummy.  This was the plate I made for Charles.  I made myself a taco.  But I only had 3 bites and then I was full.  But those 3 bites were super tasty.

 

 

I love the color combo of blue and yellow....or blue and green....or blue, yellow & green. I just love color.
Sorry for the picture quality...it was taken by a 4 year old.

 

 

 

Well nothing exciting to report. Umm doing a 30 workouts in 30 days challenge with a friend. Makes me realize how much I do not like working out.  Only because I'm not doing anything fun.  If I were doing some fun workout I would enjoy it more.  Oh well..I'm to cheap to do anything fun right now. Oh yeah I'm participating in a race on Sunday. I'm so not prepared for 10 miles...but I'm going. Training was going well.  Then my mom got sick and I had to take care of her, the kids, Charles...everybody but Dawnya.  But I'm cheap...and I refuse to pay $75 for a t-shirt...so I will be at the starting line come Sunday morning.  Needless to say there will be more walking than running. Oh there will be lots of crying too. LOL

 

Okay...that's it....I think.  

Food you avoid

So what do you do when you find out a food no longer agrees with you since having surgery?  For me...I never had that problem with my band.  All food worked and went down with no problem.  Well except for my little issue with pork...but luckily that passed.  I couldn't have imagined a life without bacon. 

Well since having the revision to sleeve...there are certain things that will no longer work with my tummy.  And when I say they don't work...it is bad people.  When I eat a food that doesn't agree...my heart rate increases, my head starts to hurt, I start sweating and I have a build up of saliva in my mouth.  It feels like hell and I want to pull myself into a ball and cry like a baby. 

I have taken to writing down the food items that make me feel this way.  As soon as I eat something and this happens it goes into my little notebook.  If I didn't write it down I would eat it again...because I suffer from CRS (can't remember shit). 

Do you have any foods that make you feel like crap?

Shopping

I'm vain. I know this. I truly care about how I look. Always have and always will. Even at my heaviest I made it my business to dress myself well.

It helps that I love to shop.  One of the main reasons I had surgery is so that I could shop at more places.  I'm happy to report I can go into any store and fit the clothes.

I'm currently in a size 16 pant and a M/L shirt. I'm down to 219.8 as of this morning.  My starting weight the day of my lap band surgery was 311. I lost 50 lbs with my band. But after the complications started I gained. The morning of my revision to sleeve I weighed 275. That was 14 weeks ago.

I'm super excited to be on this journey.

Realization

I realized today that I am not a fan of organized runs.  I don't like running with a ton of people.  For me it is uncomfortable.  I like running alone (when I run)...doing me.  So that means a jam comes through the headphones I can stop and bounce a little before continuing the run.  Umm...apparently, people don't appreciate you stopping dead in your tracks to dance during a 5k.  Ummm...my bad.  Needless to say...this means I've wasted a few buck signing up for these runs.  I'll go and get my t-shirt...but I won't get a medal at the end because I'm not going to run it.  LOL

So as you can see my post are few and far between. I really just don't have much to say.  Seriously, my life is as boring as watching paint dry.  LOL

Well I hope everyone is doing well with their wellness goals.  I'm still on track...which is a great thing.  Have a fantabulous day folks.