...pain! Yesterday my co-worker was killed on his way to work. This man was scheduled to retire in December. He had a new grandchild that was to be born next month. Unfortunately, he will not be to see that. While riding his motorcycle to work (which he does daily) he encountered a deer. Let's just say the deer was not hurt.
Last year this man beat Cancer's ass!! He survived a horrific car accident 2 years ago. He was funny, grump and just an all around great person. He is gone! I'm still in shock. I don't question God in His decisions. However, I'm still sad about this.
Rest in Peace Paul Sexton...you will be missed dearly.
My mother...WOW...let's talk about her for a minute. She is trying to drive me crazy with worry, or she is trying to send herself to an early grave. I'm not sure which one it is...but we are going to have some serious issues in the future.
Wednesday night I dropped my mom off at the emergency room. Yes I dropped her off...heck me and 2 toddlers and an infant in the ER is not a combination for good things. So I dropped her off. She was admitted. As you may remember she was hospitalized in March. Five effing months later we are back in the hospital for almost the same thing. The only difference is there was no ear infection involved. Her blood sugar was near 400 (dangerous), her blood pressure was through the roof...and she had keitones (sp) in her urine (not good for a diabetic).
When she got out the hospital the last time she talked a good game about how she was going to change and she was going to do better. Apparently that did not happen. Instead she ends up back in the hospital. I'm so angry with her. I asked her if she was depressed, did she need a break...what the hell do you need to make you care about yourself as much as I care about you.
Well needless to say...she is not happy with me...because I went through the kitchen and threw out tons of crap that she likes to make and eat that is not conducive to a heart healthy diabetic diet. Whatever...I don't care.
I'm getting over my anger. She claims (again) that she is going to change. She actually got up this morning and walked around the block as far as she could go. Not the entire block...but a walk none the less. I told her I was proud of her. Every little step is a step closer to being healthy. We shall see what happens.
I'm tired...so tired. Now I have more to share with my therapist. LOL
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Dawnya...I am sorry about your coworker. I am sorry for his family! Poor people!!
Now for your mother! You do care silly lady! That is why you are mad at her! Be mad. Maybe it will get through to her how much she needs to do to get on the right path!
If anything get one of your children in their sweet little kid voices to tell her "grandma, we don't want you to die" and see if that pushes her button!
Sending you happy little vibes today!
Aww Honey, I'm so sorry to hear about your co-worker. I will keep his family in my prayers as they deal with this terrible blow.
Regarding your mother...I have a little experience with this topic...it is difficult to help someone (particularly a non-compliant diabetic) if they don't want to help themselves. My hubby and I put our entire lives on hold for 3 years to care for his father (who was in that same boat) until he passed away.
If you would like to talk, email me your number and I will call...I know how much it helps to talk to someone who has been there...
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You have so much on your plate, I really don't know how you do it all! Big hugs to you!!! I'm sorry about your mom! Hopefully she will make a change for good this time and focus on her health! I'm so sorry to hear about your co-worker. That just breaks my heart for him family!
Oh Dawnya, I am just so so sorry. Big Hug.
I am sorry about the loss of your co-worker. Although I did not know the gentlemen well we had a co-worker succumb at my company last week as well. Life is so short and time is very prescious
Wow, that is a whole lot for one post. I'm so sorry about your coworker. That is just tragic.
I'm also sorry about your mom. I will keep her (and you) in my prayers. Big hugs, friend.
That is a WHOLE lot!! I am praying for the family of your co-worker and for his friends (you & others). I hope that your mom sees what a gift she has in you to care enough to throw the bad stuff out so that she can live. Diabetes is a killer and you want to keep her around for a long, long time. I'm praying for your strength sis!! (((HUGGGGGS)))
I'm so sorry about your co-worker. Very tragic. Lots of *hugs* your way.
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I'm sorry you have all of this on your plate, I wish I could help! :( I'll be praying for you mom and for your co-worker's family. *hugs*
Oh Dawnya, I am praying deep for you and your co-worker's family. What a tragedy. But you're right, God has a plan and he knows what he's doing, even if we hate his plan.
I'm so sorry about your mom too. I know how difficult diabetes is...my husband has it, but it's so hard to make someone do the right thing. Just keep being strong and influencing and hopefully she'll 'get it'.
Hugs, Honey, Big Hugs to you!
Oh my goodness, Dawnya, I am so sorry to hear about both situations. They are both awful in their own right. You need a mental health break day. (((hugs)))
I'm so sorry! You're in my thoughts, sending hugs your way!
Wow that is so much to deal with all at once. So sorry for the loss of your co-worker.
As for your Mom... I'm a similar situation with my Mom and I know its far from easy. She actually on the way back to the heart doctor after over two years of me insisting she go back. And she claims to eat healthy foods, but when you look in her cupboards its a nightmare. Frustrating... just have to keep praying they decide they are worth the changes they need to make before its too late.
(((HUGS)))
Dawnya...awww girl, I'm so sorry about your coworker. Like you said though, even when we don't like the choice, the lord does what is on the higher agenda...not ours.
So sorry to hear your mom was back in the ER hon. My mom is a great one for "I know Cat" Ask Robyn if you want an earful on how much I DESPISE the two words, "I Know..." Keeping you and your family in my thoughts dear.
Wow, what a terrible shock. It sounds like he was kicking ass and taking names. R.I.P.
OH! I'm so sorry about your coworker - that's just awful. I said a little prayer for his family, may they find comfort in where he is now at some point.
And OMG - I'm so sorry about your mom. Man, it's so hard to watch those we love do such hard things to themselves. I wish you both strength!!
So so sorry about the loss of your friend.
I know exactly how you feel about your mom. My dad was almost in a diabetic coma a couple years back and he hasn't changed anything. It drives me crazy!
Oh dear God, Dawnya ! How sad ... but such a reminder to live everyday (and to take care of ourselves and our families). Do take care of yourself !
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