Four years ago I was a manager at Walgreens. It was a great learning experience. I actually enjoyed the job. Unfortunately, the boss I had was a very unhappy man and made my job miserable. After only 2 weeks of work I started searching for a new job. It took me 8 months to find one.
I started working for the Feds in September 2007. I was so excited. There were so many opportunities for growth...and even travel if you were willing to be mobile. I got through my probationary year and thought it was time to make that move. Well then I started grad school. I figure it would be easier to stay in my position because it was low stress and I wouldn't have to worry about school. That is what I did.
However, the stress level has changed. The environment I work in is so unhealthy for me. I literally get sick when I'm at work. I'm starting to worry as the headaches have come back. When I was at Walgreens I got a migraine that lasted for 84 days....yes that is 84 days. I spent more time in the Dr. office then at home. It was all stress related. The day I decided I was going to quit (with no job in sight) the headache instantly went away.
I have a boss who has been here about 6 months now. I can count on my hand the number of words we have exchanged since his arrival. Talk about unhealthy and unproductive. My two previous bosses were awesome. They respected me and I respected them. That is so not happening right now.
I'm so unhappy here...I want to cry...and I'm not big on shedding tears. I can guarantee if it were not for my children I would have quit by now.
This weekend I will spend a great deal of time working on my resume and applying for positions. I don't like being unhappy. This place is literally robbing me of my joy...of my spirit. I frown more than I would like. I feel old...I fell empty. I have to sit in my car for 15 to 20 minutes everyday before I can walk in my house after work. I don't want to bring the misery home.
I know the economy sucks and I should be happy to even have a job. However, I don't believe in settling. Life is to short to settle. If there is something that you want...and you have decided not to go for it...stop that nonsense right now. Stand up and fight for your joy!!!!!
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You go girl...I love your fighting spirit. Life is indeed too short to settle and I hate seeing you in pain like this - physically and mentally. Keep your chin up - walk into work knowing each day it is only temporary and it is one more step to finding your real passion/job.
I'm so sorry you're having to deal with so much unhappiness there. I hope you'll be able to find a better work situation soon. Draz is right, remind yourself its a temporary stop on the way to finding where you're meant to be. :)
Oh girl, I know it sucks to be in this position. I LOVED my job I had before leaving Ohio, I HATE HATE my current job. I only have three days left, and I don't wanna go!!!! I wish you all the luck in the world at finding a job that satisfies you!
How miserable! Yes, apply for and get another job. Life is short. You deserve to be happy!
I had an entire year of being unhappy in my job. I had a manager I disliked, I had coworkers that didn't respect my team and I didn't feel like anything would change. I changed departments within my organization. I liked the job I moved to even less. Some changes occurred within my department and I ended up going back. The manager changed and basically the team got along better. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you do.
After working so many years, I also feel that life is too short to stay in a job you hate. It is so much time in your week and it can really kill your spirit and your health. Your attitude is great...keep your mind and eyes open for new opportunities. Good luck...Chin Up!
I know how you feel. I love what I do, but I am so unhappy. I got my resume together and applied for 5 jobs last night. Do what makes you happy. Good Luck!
I know how you feel--I'm in the same situation. The stress is slowly killing me I think. I have a good manager though who is trying to get me transferred to another area so there's a little glimmer of hope. It is hard when people just say "Don't think about work". Easier said than done. Sometimes that thinking sucks us down and then comes out in sickness. Here's to finding a better place where you can stay healthy.
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