That is a song lyric. However, it is how I feel. I'm sick without my mommy at home. I'm sick worrying about why it is taking so long for her to get better...I'm in pain thinking that there has to be something more I could have done, I'm just hurting.
I hurt because I feel like I'm neglecting my kids by going to exercise after work and then going to the hospital until visiting hours end. True they are with their dad who is a super-parent compared to my skills...but I still feel like I'm doing them a disservice.
I just can't leave until they force me. I can't stand to see her with wires coming out of every availabe spot. I'm a wuss when it comes to the people I love.
I'm forcing myself to exercise today, because Lord knows my heart isn't in it. I just want my mommy to come home so I can lay my head on her belly while she strokes my hair.
It totally sucks that she will be spending her 50th birthday layed up in the hospital. I wish I could afford to pay for her to have lap band surgery. I can't...but I can teach her my new healthy living habits...we will not get to this place again.
I spoke with the Dr. today. She has a severe ear infection along with a serious case of pneumonia. Her blood sugar is still wacky. They can't get it under control because they can't give her the amount of insulin she needs, because they have to clear up the ear infection and the pneumonia. Sigh!!!
Thanks for the well wishes. I told her everyone was praying her well.
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I will continue to pray. (((hugs))) to you. I am so sorry you are suffering and hurting for her. she is lucky to have a daughter that cares so much.
When you take care of yourself and your health, you are providing your kids with a gift of a healthy mom...Hope your mom recovers soon and that things get back to normal.
Praying for a speedy recovery, hang in there!
I'm glad that you're still going to the gym. It is so important to take care of yourself right now. It really helps with the stress. I'm sure your family understands why you have to be gone. I'm sending prayers for your mom your way!
:( I am thinking of you and praying she recovers soon.
Hugs from Oregon! I hope she is home soon. Keep taking care of yourself.
It's never easy seeing your parents ill and being unable to do anything to reduce their pain or make them better. Don't beat yourself up because you are taking the time to be a great daughter.
And your children will see a mother who loves her mother as much as you do them and if they were in hospital you would be there in an instant and for as long as they needed you.
you are having such a rough time right now but the fact that you are taking care of your body for your kids and your mom says a lot about you as a person. you know that you are the pillar of your family and if you are weak it may all come down. You are doing a great job and you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your mom gets well enough that they can start to focus on her sugar level.
i will keep you and your mama in my prayers!
Prayers going up on her and your behalf this very minute.
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